On Being Happy

Yesterday I was hormonal and had a blah day. It was overcast and rainy, I was stuck inside and lonely and San Antonio just wasn't feeling like home. I let it get to me. Usually at night, if I'm not sleepy (and on my A game), I have a period of reflection on what I should have done better that day and ask for forgiveness. Last night my spirits were low and as I was reflecting on what I could have done better. I started to think "I could have done every thing better." It was really one of those days. But then, I had images come to my mind, quick snapshots of the day. Of Lucy laughing about something with me and sitting next to Ashton as he practiced the piano. Of coloring next to Mallie and scratching Hannah's back. I saw my calm reaction when Mallie knocked her smoothie off the table and left berry marks on the ceiling! I saw Scotty's little gummy smile in my mind as I tickled him after changing him. It was a tender mercy from Heavenly Father that I had done more than okay and that tomorrow was a new day. "Tomorrow!" I promised myself I was going to be cheerful! So today, I chose to be happy. And I was! And these guys all ended up on my bed for storytime so we took a family selfie. I think it was our first as a family of 7. I may be cheerful but I'm still self-conscious about the braces (one step at a time), so you get the funny face one!