I'm without a laptop and camera cord this week which means I can't upload pictures. And eventhough I'm sure you all love seeing pictures of my kids (I've got a great one of Hannah in the tub fully clothed) I thought I'd take a few days to write out my thoughts and experiences on certain subjects.
Today a friend came over whom I hadn't seen for a couple of years. Her son Charlie encountered a number of struggles even before he was born (including a stroke in the womb). He is over come so many obstacles and this summer will have cranio reconstructive surgery with the same doctor we used for Ashton. As I walked her through the process I told her the hardest part for me was actually the day of pre-ops when I had to hold Ashton down as they tried to find a vein. He was crying and screaming and all I wanted to do was rescue him. As I described it she looked at me and nodded knowing exactly the feeling I was talking about. She had done that numerous times already and then showed me her littly guys arm that was still recovering from multiple needle sticks. I had spaced for a moment her long days in the NICU. I told her she was strong and amazing and as I said it I remembered people use to tell me the same thing when they heard about Ashton's surgery. Then we had a very real conversation about dealing with what comes your way. From a far we make look at someone else's trial and say I could never handle that - and yet if we are faced with it we just do it. We have to do it. And we do it with Heavenly Father's help. There we were 2 very different women with different faiths sharing our own trials and how we got and are getting through them. It was a sweet afternoon as I cried when she shared some words from her son's baby blessing.
I love when I have moments of clarity. That the eternal plan just clicks. The trials aren't because we're doing something wrong or we're unworthy to just have it easy. Easy isn't a part of the plan. We have them to make us stronger and more Christlike. We have them because He loves us and He's trying to help us be our very best. Remembering that in the midst of them is the hard part.
3 comments:
Well said...thanks for sharing. Can't wait to see that picture of her in the tub.
Pete and I literally had that conversation last night... I'm just so grateful to know the power of prayer. After we left the emergency care with Syd (which compared is beans to what you two were talking about) I had to just collapse with exhaustion and say a prayer. How do people get through life without prayer?!
Sam, thanks for this. You are a very special woman and I'm so grateful to have spent the morning with you. Thanks you.
Post a Comment